the missing...

i was sitting at my computer,
recently moved to in front of the window so when i look up i can see my birds.
it was getting dark and as i glanced up
i saw the darkness rolling in,
the clouds swirling,
a storm is coming,
i feel it in my aching collarbone,
but even more i can feel it in my very being.
i watch the clouds roll, while my dear friends blogs mix pod plays in the background,
i love her blog, i love her heart, and i love her mix pod, she somehow finds the music of my heart,
if i ever figure out how i will post a link here.
i don't know the song but these words come wafting over the airways as i watch the storm approach
"give me Jesus, you can have all this world, give me Jesus"
and for a moment i can almost see through the veil that separates this world from heaven
and my heart is overwhelmed
and i suddenly see how very close my dear friend in heaven is
and how very far away
and i miss her
i miss her with a renewed grief that wants to pull me under

and i think how she would love my yard

and how she would know the real name of my

songbird i named tangerine

and i am so happy to have had her

and i miss her so much

as i watch the clouds swirling
i feel my heart do the same
a storm is coming

and already i miss the sun

but i remember

 "give me Jesus, give me Jesus, you can have all this world, give me Jesus"
and i look through the storm ...   the sun is coming

the Son has come